A few days ago, I cried. I sat next to my boyfriend in my favorite breakfast place (a little hole in the wall in true NYC fashion) and cried right into my chocolate chip pancakes. I had a million thoughts running through my head. It’s hard to find peace when you’re juggling a demanding full-time job in finance while trying to build from scratch your part-time photography business (the latter which honestly feels like taking care of a baby). Add to that doing trainings in posing and marketing, maintaining relationships, taking care of my health… AND finding the time to watch a few Netflix episodes here and there (because a girl needs to unwind somehow!). Let’s just say, it’s very easy when you have so much going on to feel overwhelmed and discouraged.
Am I good enough as a photographer? Am I being true to my brand? Am I getting across the message I’m trying to convey through my images? How do I attract the right kinds of clients (i.e. those who love fresh and joyful images that tell a story and feel dreamy and raw and natural)? All of this was going through my head and I, like many other times before, just thought: “What if I just step away from all of this? I started my business one day out of the blue. I can just as easily say goodbye to it. Why can’t I just be happy with my steady corporate job?” But even though I was feeling discouraged, I knew I had a session scheduled for that week that I needed to get mentally ready for.
I jumped into a subway train on Wednesday afternoon. I had to leave work earlier than normal to get to my photography session by 6pm. The trains were running with delays and, by the looks of it, I was going to be late (for the first time EVER) to a session. So I switched to a cab halfway there only to find myself stuck in traffic, which only made me even later. I hustled all the way to our meet-up spot once I finally got to the session location in Chelsea Piers and put my game face on. It’s important (I’ve learned through experience) to leave all of the stress and all of your worries behind when you’re starting a session in order to best serve your clients.
The minute I stepped into the session, I found the little Jagman playing with one of his toy cars. He was so eager to show me his car and looked like he was ready and pumped for the session. He was so energetic during the entire session, which meant I did a lot of jogging behind him to catch him in action, having fun and doing as all the kiddos do. His parents were great sports and I was so happy to capture and deliver images of them having fun together as a family. Like her mom happily posted online when she shared some of the images from the session: “this is what it’s all about – #thelittlethings”.
As soon as I was done working with this wonderful family, I got to thinking about all of the reasons why I love doing what I do. I love working with people. I love making people laugh and smile, and immortalizing the connections and the love they share with each other in a joyful and unfiltered fashion. I love preserving moments, so that future generations can look at my images and FEEL the emotion and FEEL the love that they share. I hope this is exactly what you can see and FEEL in the following images.